I was laying in bed last night wondering why I was unable to sleep, when I realized it was because I had my back to the door. Silly, right? Wait until you hear why that is such a big deal.
When I was six, my dad built a doll house for me as a Christmas gift. Now, this wasn't any old doll house. This doll house was a 5 foot tall, 6 foot wide log cabin doll house. It was (and is) amazing. Except at night when it absolutely terrified me. I spent every night as a child, and quite frankly teenager, terrified that someone was hiding behind it. I would lay awake for hours every night scared to death that someone was going to sneak out from behind it and attack me. In middle school I kept my tennis racket by the door of my bedroom so that when we got home from church late at night I could grab it and check behind the doll house (this fear, by the way, extended itself to the shower curtain, as well). Early on in the history of the doll house I decided it would be best to sleep facing towards it. That way if anyone did come out from behind it I would see them immediately. Even if that side of my body had grown numb, I would not roll over. Years after I had finished playing with dolls the doll house became a book case. At this point it was moved closer to the wall, and I put my tennis racket into semi-retirement, but my fear and paranoia persisted. Even now as I approach the ripe old age of 24, the dark still scares me. I suppose it has something to do with the unknown, the hidden. Even now that I don't sleep alone (my 6'4" husband and two dogs take up alot of space and do more than their fair share of snoring) I still have trouble sleeping at night. Apparently life-long habits are hard to break...